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23:09 - Jan. 14, 2006
life is good right now
i'm not even quite sure if i have anything to say here, other than i'm just checking in. i'm writing so i can look back in a month, two or three or six, and remember where i was today. tomorrow is my three month anniversary for dating my boyfriend and this, ladies and gentlefolk, is so far the longest and best relationship yet. i have a headache right now. i also have a full time job doing something i love, am paying off school and car loans and all my own expenses. i have a puppy and a townhouse and dreams i believe to be possible to achieve. i have so much and i am more settled and secure than i've been in years (years!) but, strangely enough, i miss the alone time i've been used to having. i like the opportunities for hours upon hours of reflection and dreaming and just spending time in my head. is that selfish; strange?then again, it's all up for my asking, isn't it? it's all up to me to say: i need to spend more time alone. and that's it. it's just stating what i need but that's always been difficult, hasn't it? y'know, something important i'm learning in this relationship is the understanding of a very simple concept: that a healthy relationship is possible. i'm sticking with it this time, and it feels good. life is good right now. there, that's a good summary, isn't it?
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