16:11 - Jan. 25, 2005
enjoying ca
i remember driving with my friend through pittsburgh, at night after orpheus rehearsal, and it was raining a cold, early spring rain and she was just delighted - smiling and laughing with no umbrella. to me, it was just rain. a usual, spring rain that one was supposed to duck from and run inside. but being out here, in california, i understand why the rain seemed magical to her. it is, somehow. there's something different about it out here; the way the wind blows, and how it just sprinkles a little and then stops. big, fat drops. and i miss home.
i miss pittsburgh, and home. looking forward to going up into the mountains this weekend. i keep imagining how it's going to be, but i'm sure it won't be that way. it's exciting to be out here on my own. but sometimes this feeling of incredible vulnerability comes over me and i'm not scared, just humbled in its presence. somehow. i'm looking forward to seeing jake.
