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23:07 - Jan. 10, 2005
bikes and trains!
in two days, i'm taking a train across the country. and then i'm taking a bus into the foothills of the sierra nevadas, and then i'm riding my bike on roads i've never seen before, in january, 30 miles further.
my parents are freaking out, and my father is trying his best to tell me what to do. but i've graduated college, i'm not as naïve as he thinks i am... maybe that's what's pissing me off - he doesn't know anything about me, but he assumes he does. mmm. not much gets me royally pissed faster than that, especially when it's my own father who's doing the mistaken assuming about me. i'm seething right now, just thinking about it. he's been an occasional when-it's-convenient-for-him part of my life; i mean, he lives 8 minutes away. it's not like he didn't have plenty of opportunities. gggrh. humph. i think that's a different issue. but i'm not trying to sound like a spoiled brat here. i am reassured that my parents care what i do and are concerned for me, but i'm also frustrated that i don't have the backbone to keep them out of my space. ... and it's also that i'm nervous, too, about this and they just feed my fears, and that makes me angry as well. but it's all a great adventure, really. fear isn't a part of adventure. of course there's caution and common sense, but fear is unnecessary. : ) right now, i think anything's possible.
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